Sunday, August 07, 2005

Review Worth Reading

"Stopover in a Quiet Town"

Starring: Barry Nelson, Nancy Malone
Director of Photography:
Robert Pittack
Production Manager:
Ralph W. Nelson
Art Direction:
George W. Davis, Wlter Holscher
Film Editor:
Thomas W. Scott
Set Decoration:
Henry Grace, Robert R. Benton
Casting:
Patricia Rose
Assistant Director:
Charles Bonniwell, Jr.
Sound:
Franklin Milton, Philip N. Mitchell
Mr. Serling's Wardrobe:
Eagle Clothes

Filmed at Metro-Goldwyn-Mayer Studios

A couple wakes up, and both find that they are fully dressed. They joke each other about being drunk, but most of the joking stops when they realize that they are not in their own apartment room in New York City.

They recall the night before and try to figure out their circumstances, but their plotting is interrupted many times by the woman's constant joking about the man's drunkenness the night before. She then recalls that "somewhere about Riverdale", something came over the top of the car (we now know that she was driving because the man was too drunk to drive) and, it, whatever it was, was dark. The woman doesn't remember anything after that. The man suggests that possibly a wreck occurred, but she doesn't believe that to be even possible.

The man finally suggests that "another car" plowed into them and that they had been taken in by the owners of "the other car", and that breakfast would be waiting downstairs for them.

They both walk downstairs only to find an empty kitchen! When the look around, all they can find is fake "stage" food. Surprised by this, they attempt to open the drawers, only to find that they too are fake! Finally, the man tries the phone, but learns that it isn't even wired into the wall! During all of this, they hear a little girl's laugh occasionally in the background.

They exit the house, and hear the same little girl laughing that they heard while they were in the kitchen. It is really starting to bother them now.

They wander around the town in hopes of finding someone (another person) in the area. Finally, without any luck of finding a person, the woman sees a solitary squirrel, and goes over to touch it. But when she does . . . the squirrel falls off the limb! They realize that it is a fake, stuffed squirrel!

The couple finally decides that all the neighbors must be at church since it is Sunday. But when upon arriving at the church, they realize that it is completely empty, just like all the houses in the neighborhood. The man rings the bell, but still, nobody comes. They hear the girl again.

They now begin their search for anything that could be real. The man points out a tree, and explains how it must be real. They both rejoice at finally seeing something that is real and not a prop, until the man pats the tree and it falls over on it's side! It was a prop too!

As they go to sit down and light a cigarette, the cigarette that is thrown onto the ground ignites and sets the grass on fire! When the fire is stopped, it can be seen that all the grass was actually paper mache!

The couple keeps wandering through the streets of the town, finding a car with a mannequin inside it. The man begins to think that it might be some kind of test or joke. But, he gives up that idea eventually.

They both sit down and discuss the events of the previous night. And then, the girl begins to think that possibly, theey are both dead . . . and that they are both in hell. But then, both of them hear a train whistle!

They run to the train station, and hop on the train immediately! Theys ee the sign for the town before the train departs . . . it says, "Centerville". While they are on the train, they discuss the crazy town, and also talk about how great it is going to be to be back at home.

But then . . . the train stops at it's next destination. The same sign for 'Centerville" is again visible! The train went in a complete circle!

Desperate, the two decide to walk along the main road until they reach the next town. But while they are walking, a giant shadow comes down out of the sky and moves down towards them!

A giant arm can be seen picking the couple up and holding them in it's hand! The little girl that had been laughing is now visible, and it is now clear that the whole town is actually just a "play town" for the little girl!

A woman comes into the room (we cannot see her face, only hear her voice), and tells the girl to be very careful with the playthings, simply because the girl's father had brought them all the way from Earth!

The girl sets the couple down back in the town, and they run off.

Review By Eric Burke

Saturday, August 06, 2005

Ramblings

So today when i got out of my car mark got out of his car with his father-in-law. he said to me "alone huh?" i thought about that, in fact i am still thinking about that.

Friday, August 05, 2005

Used to be a Forward

Something to Think About....

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Saturday Night's Dream

I remember dreaming the other day. Mostly I remember it because I woke myself up by doing a push up pushing myself from my bed.

I remember that in some part of the dream I was supposed to meet my sister in law and my brother Jim for dinner somewhere. At any rate I found myself on a ship, one made of wood, like an old pirate ship. It was really dark but of course the light came through some windows. There were two people sitting down eating, but they were not Jim or Sara.

At some point a lady ran by holding a small child. I immediately felt strange about this lady and new that she was taking the child. I happened to have a sword at hand. I took it out of its holster (which was made of alluminum foil by the way). I launched it at the woman in hopes of catching her before she fled up the wooden stairs. It spun toward her in at the last moment she turned. The sword struck the child; this resulted in a mass of red blood.

Next I saw a teen age girl to my right as the other lady began slowly walking toward me. The teen age began walking toward me as well. She was extremely pale had short black hair, wore a black dress, black lip stick, and black finger nail polish. Both of the assumed zombie position as they moved slower and extended their hands forward.

The two people eating rose up and assumed the same position. I readied for my sword but only the sheath remained. It had now turned to hard plastic so I took it up to use it to ward off the four approaching zombies. I headed toward the two who just got up from the table. I whacked at the one to my left but the plastic tube had no affect. A few more zombies entered from a door directly in front of me.

I was pushed down from behind. I could see very little but some of the wooden floor and the surrounding darkness. I felt something heavy holding me down as I tried to get up. Then I felt a bit on my ear. Another bite on my shoulder then on the other shoulder. Then bites somewhere on my head. I managed to get my hands under me and tried to get up again. I could not. I tried once more and awoke myself by doing a push up on my bed.

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Saturday, July 09, 2005

When you are bored...

"I will not enter my house or go to my bed - I will allow no sleep to my eyes, no slumber to my eyelids, till I find a place for the Lod, a dwelling for the Mighty One of Jacob." Psalm 132:3-5

BLUE WATER HOUSE OF PRAYER

Summer Schedule of Events

JULY

1 ---------------------- OFF


8 ---------------------- B.W.H.O.P.

LOVE OUTREACH 7:00 PM

401 GRAND RIVER (AT MICHIGAN)

PORT HURON, MI

PASTOR JIM “COWBOY” THOMASON


10 -------------------- “SUMMER CONCERT ON THE LAWN”

COMMUNITY OUTREACH 6:00 PM

COLONIAL WOODS CHURCH GROUNDS

3240 PINEGROVE AVE

PORT HURON, MI

PASTOR PHIL WHETSTONE

15 ------------------------ B.W.H.O.P.

PECK ASSEMBLY OF GOD 7:00 PM

41 WEST LORRAIN ST.

PECK, MI

PASTOR PHIL SEPPO

(SEE directions below)


16 ----------------------- COMMUNITY OUTREACH

CITY HALL GROUNDS 6:00-9:00 PM

CORNER – BROADWAY & S. MAIN

MARINE CITY, MI

22 ----------------------- BOAT NIGHT TRAINING AND OUTREACH

LOVE OUTREACH 7:00 PM

401 GRAND RIVER (SEE ABOVE)


29 ------------------- B.W.H.O.P.

PECK ASSEMBLY OF GOD 7:00 PM

41 WEST LORRAIN ST.

PECK, MI

PASTOR PHIL SEPPO

(SEE directions below)


AUGUST

5 --------------------- B.W.H.O.P.

LIFETOUCHING MINISTRIES 7:00 PM

CORNER - 24TH AND MOAK

PORT HURON, MI

PASTORS DAVID & MARJI MATTOCKS

6 ----------------------- COMMUNITY OUTREACH 3:00-7:00 PM

SERVANTS OF CHRIST CHURCH GROUNDS

502 14TH ST (AT WELLS)

PORT HURON, MI

PASTOR STU BROWN


12 ----------------------- B.W.H.O.P.

LIFETOUCHING MINISTRIES 7:00 PM

(SEE ABOVE)


19 ------------------------ B.W.H.O.P.

LIFETOUCHING MINISTRIES 7:00 PM



20 -------------------------COMMUNITY OUTREACH

CITY HALL GROUNDS 6:00-9:00 PM

MARINE CITY, MI (SEE ABOVE)


26 ----------------------- B.W.H.O.P.

LIFETOUCHING MINISTRIES 7:00 PM





DIRECTIONS TO PECK ASSEMBLY OF GOD


TAKE 69 WEST TO M-19 N TO THE FIRST STOP SIGN IN PECK. TAKE A LEFT. GO ABOUT ½ MILE DOWN TO MILL ROAD. TURN LEFT. GO ONE BLOCK TO LORRAIN. TURN RIGHT. GO ONE BLOCK TO PECK ASSEMBLY – 41 WEST LORRAIN.

Monday, July 04, 2005

Listening to Bands

Back from Cornerstone. Here are some of the bands that we listened to and some comments:

  • The Dark Forest- wonderful opera, wonderful story. Please listen to it.
  • Chasing Victory-
  • As Cities Burn- Hardcore
  • Every New Day- ...
  • Mourning September- I liked the CD better
  • Exit the Ordinary- music
  • Aracely- Wonderful worship leader with a heart after God
  • Forever Changed- music
  • The Myraid - :)
  • in medias res- had some sound problems, and then they covered a supertones song (another problem)
  • celestial static- sounds like celestial static; the lead singer had a ribeye sandwich for lunch
  • Men and Angels- Irish folk music; nice
  • The Huntingtons- might be the ramones back to life; their last show ever, sad but fun
  • monday morning- like monday morning
  • as i lay dying- Wonderful hardcore
  • still remains- hardcore
  • dead poetic- more hardcore
  • timbre- harp player, nice to relax
  • lifestory:monologue- i liked it, somewhat like mewithoutyou, from canada
  • blessed by a broken heart- dusty hardcore
  • wooden finger-ust a guitar or two
  • the clergy- different clergy then i remmeber, just music
  • headnoise-see the name :)
  • madison greene- tribal music, some worship nice suprise
  • psalters- peaceful group of nomads, wonderful hearts wonderful music, i will e-mail the mp3 if you want to hear them.
  • indegenous tribal worship-by whoever
  • the illagical spoon- some psalter memebers
  • busker kibbutznik- non-american music with poetry read to it.
  • and aaron and i played a little too.

Saturday, June 25, 2005

Animals

Animals

God said to have dominion of all the beasts of the field etc.

Samson killed animals.

Sacrifices killed animals.

Job talked about how great animals were, but used hunting terms. Psalms contain various metaphors to god using animals.

If dominion means to care for then we should care for all animals.

Maybe love them as well.

Can we kill them: yes.

Can we eat them: yes.

What else.

Thursday, June 23, 2005

People Will Try To Explain God Away -if they can

ADDIS ABABA, Ethiopia (AP) -- Police say three lions rescued a 12-year-old girl kidnapped by men who wanted to force her into marriage, chasing off her abductors and guarding her until police and relatives tracked her down in a remote corner of Ethiopia.

The men had held the girl for seven days, repeatedly beating her, before the lions chased them away and guarded her for half a day before her family and police found her, Sgt. Wondimu Wedajo said Tuesday by telephone from the provincial capital of Bita Genet, some 560 kilometers (348 miles) west of the capital, Addis Ababa.

"They stood guard until we found her and then they just left her like a gift and went back into the forest," Wondimu said, adding he did not know whether the lions were male or female.

News of the June 9 rescue was slow to filter out from Kefa Zone in southwestern Ethiopia.

"If the lions had not come to her rescue then it could have been much worse. Often these young girls are raped and severely beaten to force them to accept the marriage," he said.

"Everyone ... thinks this is some kind of miracle, because normally the lions would attack people," Wondimu said.

Stuart Williams, a wildlife expert with the rural development ministry, said that it was likely that the young girl was saved because she was crying from the trauma of her attack.

"A young girl whimpering could be mistaken for the mewing sound from a lion cub, which in turn could explain why they (the lions) didn't eat her," Williams said. "Otherwise they probably would have done."

Sea Animals and God

Dolphins 'protect' lifeguards from great white

Four New Zealand lifeguards say a pod of dolphins provided a protective barrier around them when they were threatened by a great white shark.

Rob Howes and three other lifeguards were on a training swim about 100 metres off shore at Ocean Beach on NZ's north-eastern coast when the dolphins raced in and herded the swimmers together.

"They started to herd us up, they pushed all four of us together by doing tight circles around us," Howe said.

When he tried to drift away from the group, two of the bigger dolphins herded him back.

He then saw why. A three-metre great white shark was cruising toward the group about two metres below the surface.

"I just recoiled," Howe said. "It was only about two metres away from me. The water was crystal clear and it was as clear as the nose on my face."

Howe says he then realised the dolphins had moved in to protect the swimmers.

He says the dolphins surrounded the group for 40 minutes before they were able to make it back to shore.

Another lifeguard, Matt Fleet, was patrolling nearby in a rescue boat when he saw the dolphins' unusual behaviour.

When he dived out of the boat to join the group, he also saw the great white.

Fleet says he was keen to get out of the water after the sighting but did not panic.

"I just kept looking around to see where it was," he said.

The incident happened about three weeks ago but Howes and Fleet say they kept the story to themselves until they had a chance to catch up and confirm what they had seen.

Environment group Orca Research says dolphins attack sharks to protect themselves and their young, so their actions in protecting the lifesavers was understandable.

"They could have sensed the danger to the swimmers and taken action to protect them," Orca's Ingrid Visser told NZPA.

Auckland University marine mammal research scientist Rochelle Constantine agrees dolphins are normally vigilant in the presence of sharks.

Dr Constantine says the altruistic response of the dolphins was normal.

"They like to help the helpless," she said.

Animals and God

NAIROBI - A 73-year-old Kenyan grandfather reached into the mouth of an attacking leopard and tore out its tongue to kill it, authorities said Wednesday.


Peasant farmer Daniel M’Mburugu was tending to his potato and bean crops in a rural area near Mount Kenya when the leopard charged out of the long grass and leapt on him.

M’Mburugu had a machete in one hand but dropped that to thrust his fist down the leopard’s mouth. He gradually managed to pull out the animal’s tongue, leaving it in its death-throes.

“It let out a blood-curdling snarl that made the birds stop chirping,” he told the daily Standard newspaper of how the leopard came at him and knocked him over.

The leopard sank its teeth into the farmer’s wrist and mauled him with its claws. “A voice, which must have come from God, whispered to me to drop the panga (machete) and thrust my hand in its wide-open mouth. I obeyed,” M’Mburugu said.

As the leopard was dying, a neighbor heard the screams and arrived to finish it off with a machete.

M’Mburugu was toasted as a hero in his village Kihato after the incident earlier this month. He was also given free hospital treatment by astonished local authorities.

“This guy is very lucky to be alive,” Kenya Wildlife Service official Connie Maina told Reuters, confirming details of the incident.

Sunday, June 19, 2005

Marine City Michigan

It happened. The Blue Water House of Prayer led worship in Marine City. Not just in Marine City, but outside, at 6:00pm on the property in front of the city Hall building on Main Street. God is good. I'm thankful for the people who showed up and praised God in public and took the Holy God, the creator of the universe out of their comfortable church buildings and told God how much they loved him in song on the streets of Marine city.

God bless dave for leading, mark and debbie for singing, rich for drumming, aaron for bongoing, ben for banjoing and saxing, brian for guitaring, and tina and annie for controlling the sound.

God bless Harvest time church for doing this and giving away so much food and pop and love. how backwards are you people. having a free concert with free food- don't you know you will lose money?!

but thank god, becasue you are winning souls. one person joined the family of god today at this outside service. God is real.

if you weren't there this month you should be there next month. July 16th, Saturday 2005 at the Marine City town hall. (come even if you have to drive all the way there)

Friday, June 17, 2005

Joan of Arc

This is some stuff i have put together about Joan of Arc.

Hearing god
Did Joan of arc hear god?

This question has been bearing in my mind lately. After reading all the historical evidence that is written it seems that history points to some strange facts. That she existed, that she said she heard god, that she never deviated from her position, that the king accepted her, that the army won its first battles, and most important under her command-under her command, and that she was never charged with heresy for blaspheming god, but for matters of clothing and “official church business”.

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Joan of Arc (French: Jeanne d'Arc) (January 6, 1412 - May 30, 1431), known as the Maid of Orléans (French: la pucelle d'Orléans), is a national heroine of France and saint of the Catholic Church. During the Hundred Years' War she led the French against the English: against all odds she defeated the English at the siege of Orléans as well as in a series of subsequent battles, enabling the coronation of King Charles VII of France in Rheims. Captured by the Burgundians, she was delivered to the English, who had a selected group of pro-English clergy condemn her for heresy, and who eventually burnt her in Rouen. Joan of Arc's campaigns were responsible for a revitalization of Charles VII's faction during the Hundred Years War. She has been revered as a national symbol in French patriotic circles since the 19th century.

Around 1424 Jeanne said she began receiving visions of Saint Michael the Archangel, St. Catherine, and St. Margaret telling her to drive out the English and bring the Dauphin to Reims for his coronation. In 1428 at the age of 16, she asked a family relative, Durand Lassois, to bring her to nearby Vaucouleurs in order to ask the garrison commander, Lord Robert de Baudricourt, to give her an escort to bring her to the Dauphin's court at Chinon. She was rejected, but returned the following January and was finally granted an escort of six men. Two of these soldiers, Jean de Metz and Bertrand de Poulengy, said they gave her male clothing to wear (as the standard disguise used in such circumstances) and brought her through Burgundian-controlled territory to Chinon. She was said to have convinced Charles to believe in her by relating a private prayer that he had made the previous November 1st, although he additionally insisted on having her examined for three weeks by theologians at Poitiers before granting final acceptance. She was then brought to a succession of towns where preparations were being made to bring supplies to the city of Orléans, which had been under siege by the English since the previous October.

Joan of Arc and Charles VII
By 1424, the uncles of Henry VI had begun to quarrel over the infant's regency, and one, Humphrey, Duke of Gloucester, married Jacqueline, Countess of Hainaut, and invaded Holland to regain her former dominions, bringing him into direct conflict with Philip III, Duke of Burgundy.
By 1428, the English were ready to pursue the war again, laying siege to Orléans. Their force was insufficient to fully invest the city, but larger French forces remained passive. In 1429, Joan of Arc convinced the Dauphin to send her to the siege, saying she had received visions from God telling her to drive out the English. She raised the morale of the local troops and they attacked the English redoubts, forcing the English to lift the siege. Joan proceeded to win several battles against the English, opening the way for the Dauphin to march to Reims for his coronation as Charles VII.
After Joan was captured by the Burgundians in 1430 and later sold to the English and executed, the French advance stalled in negotiations. But, in 1435, the Burgundians under Philip the Good switched sides, signing the Treaty of Arras and returning Paris to the King of France. Burgundy's allegiance remained fickle, but their focus on expanding their domains into the Low Countries left them little energy to intervene in France. The long truces that marked the war also gave Charles time to reorganize his army and government, replacing his feudal levies with a more modern professional army that could put its superior numbers to good use, and centralizing the French state.
By 1449, the French had retaken Rouen, and in 1450, the count of Clermont and Arthur III, Duke of Brittany caught an English army attempting to relieve Caen at the Battle of Formigny and defeated it, using cannon to break up the archers. The French proceeded to capture Cherbourg on July 6 and Bordeaux and Bayonne in 1451. The Earl of Shrewsbury's attempt to retake Gascony, though initially welcomed by the locals, was crushed by Jean Bureau and his cannon at the Battle of Castillon in 1453.
Joan’s action quickly became powerfully efficient. After gathering together her army, she left for Orléans, protected by Captain Dunois, nicknamed the bastard of Orléans as he was the half-brother of Duke Charles, imprisoned in England. Joan imposed respect and managed, not without difficulty, to take command of her army. In ten days she slayed the English in the East of the city and freed the bridge over the Loire in the course of the day of Tourelles, where she was wounded. This victory brought about the lifting of the siege as the chief of the English company was killed in the battle. From 8 May until 18 June, she won back the forteresses and towns on the banks of the Loire. On 18 June, Joan’s army won its first campagne victory. Since the beginning of the Hundred Years War, the defeat of Poitiers, of Crécy and of Azincourt had covered the French cavalry with shame. Patay was thus the much awaited revenge which restored confidence and at the same time opened up the road to Reims for Charles to be crowned there.

Joan conducted the war in an entirely new way, at a tume when the savagery of battles had broken all the rules of God’s Peace. Of course baudy wenches and other girls of possibly doubtful virtue were not allowed to follow the army. Priests carrying banners recited prayers and heard the confessions of the soldiers. Joan’s companions at arms, rough men of the road noted for their propensity for rape and their exactions (one of these companions of Joan, Gilles de Rais, was hanged for rape and pilfering), held her in such esteem that it was close to veneration. They had to change their behavior and language when in her presence.

For the modern reader, this last part raises questions. Divine intervention in History upsets a rational understanding of the facts and events. However, in spite of all Pierre Cauchon’s zeal, it was not possible to condemn Joan on the grounds that she heard voices, or that she was a crank or mentally unstable He never succeeded in proving the slightest incoherence. Joan never contradicted herself. So, what then ?

At Poitiers, this is how Joan related her vocation : "When she was minding the animals, she heard a voice who told her that God was weeping over the people of France and that she, Joan, must come to France. When she heard this she began to cry ; then the voice told her to go to Vaucouleurs where she would find a Captain who would lead her safely to France and to the King ; she was not to doubt this. This is exactly what she did and she went straight to the King without any hindrance. "She gave this account on several occasions before the judges without contradicting herself, in spite of their snares. She refused to go back on her account of the voices and insisted that, even if she died, the English would be chased out of France...

"I know that the English will have me put to death because they think that after my death they will conquer the kingdom of France. But even if there were a hundred thousand more of them than at present, they will not take the kingdom. "
And this is exactly what happened after her death… The English did indeed crown the young Henry VI in the cathedral of Paris in 1432. But this symbol did not rally the French and did not prove a victory. In 1435, the Armagnacs and the Burgundians were reconciled. In 1436, Paris rejected the English. Normandy which had been thoroughly pillaged rose up in 1449 (Rouen had about 14 000 inhabitants at the time of the English conquest, but only 5 000 inhabitants remained afterwards). The English were beaten at Formigny in 1450, then at Castillon in 1453. They had to hand over the duchy of Guyenne which had belonged to them since Eleanor of Aquitaine… The best proof of the authenticity of Joan’s mission is indeed that all her prophecies came true.

The problem that Joan presents to the historian and to History itself is the same as the one presented by Jesus of Nazareth. From start to finish, Joan claimed that she had received her mission from God, that she had obeyed her voices and that she would rather die than renounce her mission. Jesus claimed to be the Son of God.

In Joan’s case, if we refuse to accept what she said of her mission, we see her as a lunatic, unbalanced, a pale figure burnt at the stake on the Old Market Square of Rouen.

But in this case the sources have to be rejected and the Joan presented does not correspond to the figure that stands out in the various pieces of evidence. Joan would then be put on trial a second time, which would be ridiculous since she has already been judged. This is precisely what Luc Besson’s film does, backed up by a substantial amount of dollars. This is the image of Joan that is being widespread in the global village by the powerful means of the cinema. In many respects, this image is intolerable as it is a false image.

It has to be said that, in this case, truth is indeed finer than fiction

Saint Joan of Arc Quick Facts


National heroine and patron saint of France
Birth 1412
Death May 30, 1431
Place of Birth Domrémy (now Domrémy-la-Pucelle), France
Known for Leading French troops to a decisive victory against the English at Orléans, which shifted the momentum toward the French in the Hundred Years' War (1337-1453)
Milestones February 1429 Convinced Charles, heir to the French throne, that divine voices had commanded her to save France; was placed in command of French troops to fight the English in the Hundred Years' War
May 1429 Led French troops to victory, breaking an English siege of Orléans
July 1429 Sat at the side of Charles VII at his coronation ceremony in Reims
1430 Was captured during an unauthorized campaign at Compiégne by Bourguignon soldiers, French allies of England, who turned her over to the English six months later
1430-1431 Was interrogated by an ecclesiastical court at Rouen, and charged on various counts including witchcraft, heresy, and wearing male clothing
1431 Confessed wrongdoing and had her sentence reduced to life imprisonment, but after resuming masculine dress was burned at the stake in the marketplace at Rouen as a relapsed heretic
1456 Was found innocent in a posthumous trial by an ecclesiastical court, which voided the results of her heresy trial
Did You Know Joan was just 17 years old when she led French troops to battle in Orléans.
From age 13, Joan believed that she heard celestial voices; she thought them to be those of Saint Michael, Saint Margaret of Antioch, and Saint Catherine of Alexandria.
Pope Benedict XV canonized Joan of Arc in 1920.


This facts seem to point to the idea that Joan believed that she heard from god and that others believed that she heard from god. Now all of this I truly believe can be true and most likely is true, historical fact seems to support it.

The real question for me is that if she heard from god and delivered the message from god, then why did he lead a war that to me seemed over land or conquest. Was there some other motive for the English to leave France. Something that spurred on gods will. I do not know this. I still haven’t seen Jesus advocate any war.

website: http://archive.joan-of-arc.org/index.html

Thursday, June 16, 2005

People Working Together

The article entitled “The Emergence of Cooperative Social Institutions” written by Michael Hechter, proposes a theory of “voluntary construction of institutions”. As mentioned in the article, social institutions have been a focus of sociologists for many years. Hechter poses the theory through the rational choice perspective.
Hechter presents basic concepts in his theory. Institution must be defined and Hechter does this by concluding that a group engaging in regular collective behavior consists of an institution. It becomes necessary for Hechter to define collective behavior, which he does, as any similar thing that different people do in a similar location for an extended period of time.

With these basic terms described Hechter delineates two varying theories about the formation of institutions or institutional genesis as he calls it. He describes a type called the “invisible hand” genesis; created by individuals who have “no common ends or values” and which is created out of each individual’s personal goals and motives (326). This is the view he hopes to contrast.
The view he uses to contrast the “invisible hand” theory is one based on solidarity. This solidarity comes from individuals sharing both “common ends and values”. These institutions are formed not from individual’s goals but from a common sense of goals. Hechter makes a distinction that these institutions that arise from shared goals can be either imposed or voluntary. The case of imposed institutions can be seen in any nation that creates institutions based on a dictators mandates as the people are swayed to believe in the manner that the dictator believes or are forced to by fear of punishment. Contrarily, voluntary institutions arise from any group of people who create an institution of their choice. This happens in cases such as those who come together to work on behalf of a certain crisis such as flooding or other natural disasters which bring community members together to create organizations to help each other and even to set up emergency organizations for long term use.

Hechter makes a clear distinction that these cases are sufficient for conventions, or agreements between people, and not for the establishment or what he calls cooperative institutions. Cooperative institutions are those made of individuals who organize to serve each other in order to create a surplus through their specific grouping, and who thus must deal with a free-rider possibility. A free-rider is anyone who hopes to profit from others work without their own contributions (326). Hechter further divides the cooperative institution into a four tier process. He ascribes each tier these names: the first tier free-rider problem: design-making, the second tier free-rider problem: establishment of an initial constitution, the third tier free-rider problem: implementation of the design and by-products of extant cooperative institutions: a fourth tier in institutional genesis(327-329).

This analysis is clearly a macro analysis of institutions. Hechter’s views of the “invisible hand” and the solidaristic institution both deal with how institutions are created out of societies and how these institutions function rather then how each individual functions within the institution. Hechter's further definitions of conventions and cooperation move toward a macro view as they dually deal definitively with whole groups within a society.
His macro theory is developed in the function of the institutions, which produce either public or private goods or services. Hechter does not explain how the individual might profit in any function of the institution except to state the common good is enhanced by a cooperative institution.

Micro theory is only touched on in the first tier of the free-rider problem. Here Hechter describes the free-rider as one who may have an individual incentive as opposed to the group good. This incentive would bring a greater benefit to the individual rather than the group. It is quickly turned to a macro aspect in Hechter’s statement that “selective incentitives are themselves a collective good” (328). He states that these personal benefits only arise form the group in that without the group’s contribution the incentive would not arise for the individual. This possibility creates the second tier which is a formal institutional constitution and thus creates greater solidarity of the cooperative group.
Both structure and process are touched upon in Hechter’s theory of institutions. The structure of an institution is described in the definition of an institution and in the particular definition for the particular type of institution. Where the type of institution is the “invisible hand” type then the structure is one made of individuals with no “common ends or values”. Where the type of institution is the cooperative institution the structure is one of individuals with “common ends and values”.

In particular the process is noted for the establishment of the cooperative institution. This process is explained by solidarity in the four tiers and thus can be seen as the actual structure of the cooperative institution; once the institution is first created. The first tier deals with the idea that at least on design is required to bring the group together to create the institution. This creates the common goal for the institution and leads naturally to the second tier in a cooperative institution.
The second tier process deals with the cooperative institution setting up a constitution. This constitution places each individual in their particular place within the organization. This hopefully leaves no one to benefit without contribution, such as the free-rider this constitution will delegate the specific work for the individual based on individual preferences and rational process that “seems to offer the greatest amount of good at the least cost” (328).

The first and second teir bring the institution together and designate each individual’s place in the cooperative institution. The third tier deals with both implementing the goals of the institution and further dealing with the idea of a free-rider. This tier is the process of excising formal and informal controls on the group to curtail the free-rider problem. If the free-rider is allowed to continue the group will unravel. This process includes that the implementation of production and distribution be visible to keep all members accountable.
The final tier is a change in the actual function of the institution. This occurs because the group is organized and sustaining itself as a cooperative organization. This happens when a group makes their goods available to the public who are not contributing to the group. By making the goods public the group can gain a reputation which will also increase the group good.

These four tiers of the cooperative institution are a definite step by step process in the formation of the institution. Once established however, they become the structure of the institution as well. Hechter examines both the process and the continuing structure of the cooperative institution.
Hechter describes an evolving group as it becomes an institution through the four tiers. As mentioned in the fourth tier, Hechter focuses on a change that an institution may under go as it develops. However, the focus of the other three tiers is very much an issue of what makes the institution stable. The first tier deals with the creation of production rules. These rules help maintain the stability of the institution. The second tier serves a similar function in the creation of roles for each member of the group. These tiers are vital in the creation and sustaining of the institution.

In the third tier the focus of stability is evident in the idea that if “there is no means of deterring free-riders, then there will be sub optimal production of the joint good” (328). This idea ensues that there must be some type of formal or informal control to keep the stability of the institution. Hechter describes the apex of this control as informal in the form of visibility of production and distribution. This creates a climate for other members in the institution to assess and curtail the free rider problem. Hechter also concludes that “it is rational for individuals to establish formal controls” to protect their investments in the institution (329).
This theory can be observed in various types of groups that become cooperative institutions. Most groups will encapsulate some aspect of these ideas to a closer degree than others. Two practical illustrations of cooperative institutions that deal in non-material goods will be examined in particular a church group and a high school or college classroom.

The first of these is a group called the Blue Water House of Prayer. It is a group of individuals (from different cities) who come together in a specific location (an assigned church building each month) to reach a common good (city transformation). This group is made of members who see a demand in the city of Port Huron to bring various church organizations together, create a greater moral base for the area, and share a greater degree of love to others. By these elements they are set up as an institution.
The first tier is satisfied by the roles that each person is placed in. These roles include musicians, preachers, intercessors, researchers, prophets, community activists, and teachers. In this case the free-rider, who would attend and have no role, is kept accountable by becoming a prayer partner and with their voice in the song services. Some members who do not have roles on the official music team will bring instruments to play in their seats. The second tier is satisfied by a written set of goals and roles. The demand of this institution’s function is somewhat limited and thus the growth and production remain thus limited. In its existence over the past two years the music team, which is the Blue Water House of Prayer’s main focus, has grown from two members to 15 members.

In this music team the free-rider problem does have the potential to exist. That is at times a new member will join the group to play on Friday nights. However, this free-rider will not attend practice on Thursdays or the School of Prayer on Sunday nights. In this instance, the free-rider is asked to come to the other meetings by the leaders and by the other members who vocally pronounce that they will be at the other meetings. This visibility of productions forefronts the group good and the idea that the groups good will only be met when each member is in unity and attending all meetings. In the event that these informal controls do not work, the free-rider musician will be asked not to play with the group as a formal control.
The fourth tier in this institution is in the process of emerging. One aspect is the creation of the School of Prayer which meets to educate all members in the role of prayer partners. The group is fairly organized and has plans to create other groups that will have meetings on other days and plans to have meetings seven days a week.

A final example of this is the high school or college setting where a group is formed with a common goal. This is the case in Sociology 400 where a certain number of people will meet in a specific place weekly to cooperatively work on the study guide questions. The group decides who will answer each question and how this will be done. Secondly, the joint good of the group is considered. By each member not having to answer all the questions they satisfy the second tier as Hechter relates, “ it is probable that each rational individual will prefer a realistic design that seems to offer the greatest amount of the good at least (private) cost”(328). They are getting the answers and having to do only a portion of the work apiece. Their aim is to with less work still acquire a good grade.

Of course in this situation there will be the free-rider problem; the person who attempts to get the answers from their group members without contributing. In this case there are informal controls that control the free-rider problem. In one case a group member was not asked to join the group the second time that the study guides needed to be done. A similar situation occurred when groups where mandated by the class for Sociology 321. In this instance there was a formal process for any group member who was not participating. The other group members could make an appeal to the teacher who would then remove the member from the group.
In this case the introduction of the fourth tier only exists if the members continue to stay in the group past the point of the class and continue to meet for subsequent classes. A continuation into matters pass the class room would evidence the organization producing goods rather than the initially proposed goods.

Hechter’s theory of the emergence of cooperative social institutions is a macro exchange theory that focuses on the process of how these institutions are created, but mainly on their structure and how they remain stable. This theory can be seen to work in the examples in the article of hunting and gathering societies and banking, which deal with material goods, production, distribution, and surplus. They can also be seen in non-material examples such as religiou

Monday, June 13, 2005

Ottawa

I saw Canada's capitol before the U.s. capital.
Here are somethings Ottawa taught me about:
  • nice buildings that made me think of castles.
  • wonderful roads with bicycle lanes
  • drivers looking for cyclists
  • some more things
  • mariko
  • Mr. and Mrs. Godbout
  • stephanie, mel, zack, zack, ben, brody, kelsey, anna, andrea, and someone else too.
  • adam
  • french
  • other things i didn't know before
  • love
  • loving god
  • loving people
  • touching the holy spirit in another
  • a beautiful garden
  • a beautiful couple
  • some word voodoo
  • more about myself then i was ready to learn

Thursday, June 09, 2005

A Sample

Here is a sample of the music from BWHOP. I play bass on this song.

Copy and paste the link.

http://www.geocities.com/hhachatz/2-bwhop52705.mp3

Enjoy!

Sunday, June 05, 2005

Do Not Hold Back

We did your first out doors concert for the summer today.

It was in Port Huron Michigan at the seaway terminal for an event called “be a tourist in your own town”. We played on Lake St. Clair across from the industry in Sarnia. A navy boat with crew was nearby as people came to see the attractions and listen. The actual amount of people who stopped by to listen to us was few. I’m sure many heard as the volume was quite loud. But it was 10:00 am Saturday morning.

It was a great privilege to have “church” outside among all people. Public worship is what it was. Public worship to God. Definitely things were spoken to the world.

I’m thankful God put all those people I play with in my life.

It would have been nice to have you there, if you weren’t there.

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

how birds fly

it was snwing. the first storm of the winter. the birds were taken naware and i saw one fall onto the ground in about two inches of snow. he just couldn t take off. he couldnt run fast enough in that snow to jump and get high enough to use his wings. you see, birds fly by using their wings, and when, with a little help , my bird got into the air, he flew far far away!

airplanes are much like that bird- as long as their wings keep them in the air they glide along beautifully and safely to their destination; but if they get tired and come down into the snow in some mountian side, they just give up until they are helped off the ground.

did you ever start somthing like knitting a sweater or playing hte paino and then suddenly drop it for some other intrest? i guess we all have. how difficult it is later to start over agin where you left off.

you see birds fly by flying, by using their wings. if an eagle should refuse to use his wings for a year- or even a few months- he would have difficulty in starting to fly again. it seems to me there is a pretty good idea there for all of us.

when you start something, keep at it. dont give up just becasue you are tired or becasue you want to do somehting else- finish what you start to do and then pick up after you put your playhtings away in the proper place.

the sunday school is where you learn to live on a high level with jesus . rememebering that birds fly by flying so speaking kind words, living every day with thoughts of jesus leading you forward on a high level and keeping you up there, and at making the following words your promise to jesus.

"i will follow thee , lord."

Saturday, May 28, 2005

Dreaming

I had another dream, but all i can remember is the circus, reptiles, the worship band, and some talking going on.

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Seperate

Last night i had a dream. It gave me feelings; maybe that's why i think it is intresting. sometimes ithink a dream was fun or weird or just ridiculous. but usually i doint remmeber feeling particular emotions. this one did.

by now the images are rather vague. but i remember that the first part of my dream was dealing with a trip to NY. i was in buffallo (like the trip i just took). it was a simple ordel. i was going to the movies to see the new starwars movie. my friend was there so we went there together. however, when we went into the theatre there were only two seats open. one was in the front the other in the back. we of course ended up siting apart form each other. i rememebr feeling a distinct feeling of longing and not watching the movie but watching their head with the colored glow fromt hte big screen, as i had taken the set toward the back.

the next thing that was to happen is a zoom to another location. this on e was in a shopping mall. i dont recall everbeing to this mall, but i do recall dreaming about being in it before. well int ehis mall the band bright eyes was playing. they had a concerthall in the mall. well i really cant remember all the circumstances, but i do recall not being able to be with my friendagain, well this time i didnt get invited into teh concert, as they had the tickets and i did not.

i felt deep sorrow at this point and the feeling of seperation. for anyone who has felt that seperation feeling, then you know how this felt and what a crummy way to drem that would be. i woke up at five hoping i could stay up and work; not the case. but i did toss and turn a bit until 9.

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Saturday, May 21, 2005

Empass

in some ways i feel i am at yet another impass. i was listening to something. it made me feel good. i dont know if this is becasue it appealed to my mind or my spirit. but it said sometihing like:(and i misquote) "dont be temped by those who are excelling past you beyond you, and doing it in their own strength, and in their own time. wait on the lord and you will find yourself in the place he has placed you, wait on the lord. "

it just so happend that the topic on Becker dealt with this last night. (yes becker with ted danson-its still on and still wonderfully sardonic). well mararet ran into a friend who she used to sing with. margaret hd given up singing to be a nurse. he friend had made it big in the singing business and margaret felt she had wasted her life her time. but as a nurse she was touching lives daily and the Dr. was lost without her.

sure this could have been seenas a way for hollywood to inforce the middle class and make them feel like they shouldnt stirve for the millions, but simply do there meanial tasks, but it also displayed the usefulness and purpose in a persons life where they are at the present not where they could have been or could be. what made it dually intresting is that if anyone has seen becker a few times they most likely know maragrets faith on the show.

so if i really knew the definition of empass id put it here becasue it may simply be a time that we are existing in the presnt for the present, not necessaily a big change or happenstance that will move us into greater and more wonderful things in our eyes. we may be there continually.

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

As Good As I Can

I'll try to put this together as good as i can without editing and such.

the people we see everyday should and can be the reason that we wake up everyday. today i was being a bit bothered by some people in class. the kid who wears his hat backwards and lens back inhis chair and talks during class. the girl he talks to who is very fakely tanned and asks questions like how many pages in a 400m level class. the other girl that talks and seemingly asks ridiculous questions .. those common sense questions. suddenly i thought of the owl. somehting ive taught a couple times myself but dont always rememebrer.

it will be harder to illustrate here since i cant draw. but picture a drawing of an owl. with 134 feathers, light brown and dark brown on the back, and whitish on the head. it has talons that are black, and yellow and black eyes. its beak is small and symetrical. that is the drawing of an owl. if your drawing doesnt match this it is a lesser owl, or not even worth being in the owl catagory. that is often how we view others in comparison to ourselves or how we think the ideal person should be.

this is how i want to see the owl.

maybe a curved line and a dot at the top of the line. none of the details that defined the drawing before, but i can still see the owl in the curved line and dot. why? becasue i want to see the owl, this owl can assume many forms and if you draw it it will be equal. this is how we can view people.

after remembering the owl i looked at my classmates and tweacher and smmiled at them. but why did i smile at them. if you dont know the answer i do.

i loved them. they were people like i am. not with hats or names or clothes or colors, but people in the very basic form. and i loved them for it. i love them.

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Your Weight

have you noticed that in subway stations and in many public places there are one or two of those penny weighing machines? abd very often someone is standing on one of them! people seem to like to be weighed.

your weight is what you can balance, without using any outside pressure like someone putting his foot on the scales.

the weight of your musckles is designed by how much much you can lift! how much work you can do.

it seems to me that the true weight of a dollar bill should be, how much it can buy.

you have a heart. i dont think it has ever been weighed on one of those penny scales! but i believe god weighs it by the amount of kindness and love it can balance. being big-hearted or light-hearted does not refer to scales.

what is the weight of your voice? you have heard people say," what he says carries a lot of weight." of course the meaning is that he is very influential and people hee and obey his counsel. the words of jesus, indeed his whole life, were like that. jesus' life canonly be weighed byt he love and service that he gives to thew world.

your true weight is measured not only in terms of pounds, ounces, and grams but much more it is measured by service and character and your influence for good.

"let me be weighed in an even balance."

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Somethings in NY

  • Went to a wedding
  • Saw Back to the Future III
  • Saw old friends
  • Saw water fall
  • Rode a bike
  • Saw my friend
  • Was healed
  • Got Burned
  • Got Poked
  • Had Icecream
  • Ate Corn on the Cobb
  • Saw cute kids
  • Saw a billboard that said this:

"Abstinance is easier! Condoms don't protect your heart."

Monday, May 02, 2005

Slaying People

Those in religious circles may know the term "Slain in the spirit". Well I didn't die when this happened to me, so I thought I would look up the meanings of slay in the dictionary. this is what I got:

slay Audio pronunciation of "slain" ( P ) Pronunciation Key (sl)
tr.v. slew, (sl) slain, (sln) slay·ing, slays

  1. To kill violently.
  2. past tense and past participle often slayed Slang. To overwhelm, as with laughter or love: Those old jokes still slay me.

It seems that this term is a slang term to represent an overwhelming amount of god’s presence in the human body. Here is my experience:

I was being prayed for by a man I knew had prayed for people and that while he was praying for them they fell over. I knew it was possible. This hadn’t happened to me since 1998 and I can barely remember the instance it was n a dark church with ethereal music and about a crowd of 130 people. This time the man prayed over me in a group of 10 people with florescent lights blasting our eyes. I kept my eyes open the entire prayer and was mostly looking into his eyes, at times looking down at my own body.

He prayed for my and stretched out his hands; one toward my forehead and the other toward my chest. He was praying for an infusion (anointing) of the god of the universe. Just several seconds into the pray I thought that he was touching me and pushing both my chest and head, but after looking up and down I saw there was indeed a gap between us. This was the initial thought that got me thinking that I was about to be “slain”.

Suddenly I felt a rush throughout my body, almost like a small surge of energy, as if all the chemicals in the body were being super charged. He asked another guy to stand behind me.

In my mind I was thinking two things. One was that I was not going to fall over for any man praying for me, and that no one was going to push me over.(I double checked to be certain he wasn’t touching me-he wasn’t). The second thought was that if the god of the universe was going to meet my physical body I was more than willing to have this happen. I resumed looking at the person praying for me.

At this point I felt my legs buckle and start to shake a bit. I thought “oh shit” –not in a bad way. I began to muster the strength in my body to continue to stand, slightly bending my knees in case I had them locked prior; this would increase blood flow.

The person praying for me said accept it; in my mind I was totally accepting god’s presence. Then he said there is; I checked again to be certain he wasn’t touching me; he wasn’t. I fell backward. Body quite straight, not limp at all.

My first reaction was thinking god. I was looking up at others and the florescent lights as he continued to pray for others. I thought that was great god thank you for your presence and what you are going to do; now I’ll get up. But I couldn’t.

My body was not responsive to my minds commands. In about 10 minutes I was able to inch my legs into a bend position as I lay on my back. Another 10 minutes I could lift my arms and turn my head. In another ten I rocked my self up to a squatting position wrapping my arms around my legs to keep me up.

I was happy and energized, but my body seemed to be restarting like a computer, like a slow computer. Eventually I made my way to a standing position and the only physical effect I could feel was that the sore neck I had earlier was nearly 70% better, thought eh prayer had nothing to do with asking for my neck to get better.

My synopsis is that god is real. He is powerful and if he meets a person with his presence there is going to be a change in the physical world.

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Watchman Nee Says

"to preach the gospel is purely a matter of having the outward man broken so that the inward man can flow forth and touch others."

"salvation comes when our spirit touches another's spirit."

"for the outward man to be broken, a full conseration is imparative."

"what we experience daily , at home or school or factory or on the road, is ordered by the holy spirit for our highest benefit."

"until the day comes when all these things are destroyed, you do not know perfect liberity."

"this is the beginning of the drustruction of the outward man; when you are no longer to trust yourself."

"you need not only to be built up; you need also to be destroyed, to be delivered of all the many things in your life that cannot be brought over into eternity."

"what we are, we cannot but help reveal."

"beloved, god's full intention requires that our spirit be released."

"we live not in fleshly wisdom but in god's grace."

"meekness is a sign of brokenness."

"approachable... he confesses his sin readily and sheds tears freely."

"alert to his enviroment... such a one will not be dull to others reactions."

"one who is not broken can hardly be helped."

The words of Watchman Nee...maybe we could make some blessing cookies to sell at the christian bookstore....ha"

Monday, April 25, 2005

I've Been Reading

Apparantly I've been reading alot. Here are some quotes from someAphra Behn plays I've read recently. Keep in mind these were written in the 1700's (nothing is new under the sun).

"coinstancy. andwouldst thou have me one of those dull lovers who believe it their duty to love a woman til her hair and eyes changfe color, for feaar of the scandolous name of inconstant. no, my passion, like great victors, hates the lazy stay, but having vanquished,prepares for new conquests."

"desire knows no time like them present."

"a wife?! have i no conscience, no honour in me? preithee belive i would not be so wicked.
no, my desires are genorous, an noble, to set thee up that glourious thing, that makes mankind such slaves; almighty courtesean.
come , to thy private chamber let us haste, the sacred temple of the god of love, and consecrate thy power."

"ssome are honest and give as well as take."

"do not venture your sweet life for a fickle woman who perhaps hates you."

"i die but to imagine it; would i were ddead indeed."

"-how sir? why thats impossible-
-that was the wonder sir, brecause twas impossible.
-but twas greater sir that was believed."

"where we shall only tantilize each other with dull kissing, and part with the same appetite we met."

"the tempting hope of means to conquer you,
would put me upon any dangerous enterprise,
were i the lord of all the universe,
i am so lost in love,
for one dear night to clasp you in my arms,
i'd lavish all that world, then die with joy."

"what a damned shame this is, that women should be sacrificed to fools, and fops must runaway with heiress; whilst we men of wit and parts dress and dance, and cock and travel, for nothing bu to be tame keepers."

"sure nothing is so bold as maids in love."

"a weedding is a sort of alarm to love, it calls up every man's courage."

"you mayt as well forbid the sunn to shine.
not see you no more. heavens. i before adored you, but now i rave. and with my impatient love, a thou7sand mand and wild desires are buringin. i have discovered now new worlds of charms, and can no longer tamely love and suffer."

"no sir, you do not like me. a canvas bad of wooden ladles were a better bed-fellow."

"That warrior needs must to his rival yeild,
who comes with blunted weapons to the field."

From Another Book I Finished Called WHY?

"God says, "cry out to me, inquire of me. knock and the door shall be open. seek and you will find."

"and shall not god avenge his own elect, which cry day and night unto him, though he bear long with them."

"love directed toward god is reflected and expressed by our obedience to his word and submission to his commands."

"patience is based on the scriptual principle of persistance and preserverance."

"all things not some, work together for the good of those who love the lord."

" there for if you are confused , ready to give up, wondering whats going on and what all the turmoil and choas you're experiencing is about ask god, why?"

"tahts why god is not nervous when you are nervous, because he has set your end from the beginning."

"our responsiblility is to line our will up with his will."

"the anointing of god has innate and wonderful ability to soften hearts, break stiff necks, crush pride, and terar down walls of strife and division. this inevitabily will bring sincere men and women to repentance. a repented heart is soft and gentle. gentle hearts are receptive to reconciliation. reconciliation is the hallmark of love. love and forgiveness are the conerstone and foundation that build."

"so why does the heathen seek to divide the people of god? simply put, so that there will not be any anointing. nothing ncan wither upo and dry out fresh spring wel of the spirits anointing faster than strife and discord. the bible says, ' six theings doe the lord hate and the seventh is an abomination' - 'those who sow discord among the brethern. but when we get on accord, seeking wthe iwll of god, he will always, almost without exception, manifest himself."

"uniy evolves around truth seekingbelivers who are committed to knowing the heart of christ. unity brings about the spirits power and anointing."


-i am listening to the cranerries, i just painted my nails.

Thursday, April 21, 2005

more more more

"the fullness of god is the fullness of this flesh."

"jesus of nazareth is god himself"

"what we are determines what we get out of the bible."

"if we expect to meet the lord in his word, our thoughts must first be broken by god."

"think of a person coming to the bible with his mind already set. he reads the bible toget support for his preconceived doctrines."

"the most outstanding feature of the bible is that god's spirit is released through thisbook."

"the world cannot understand that there is a spirit in god''s word, and that that spirit can be released just as it is manifested in the prophetic ministry."

"it is only when your spirit cancome out and touch the spirit of the biblke that you can understand what the bible says."

nee

Really Release it

"For whatever is untouched in us will be left untouched in others."

"only if we are accurate and trustworthy can the spirit of god be released through us."

"if in our particular thing we have not been broken by the lord, we can in no wise supply that need to our brother."

"the word of god sys," for out of theabudance of the heart the mouth speaks."

"before god, right or wrong is determined not so much by deed as by the spirit."

For those of who who do not claim to know god or the spirit of god; these past few posts are what i truly beleve as well and it mya in some way enlightne youas to why i am partially the way i am. (at least all good things-well the bad too i guess).

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Release the Spirit

without imparted knowledge a brother can only handle souls by his own understanding. if he has a special feeling on a certain day, he will speak to everybody according to that feeling, no matter who it is that comes. if he has a favorite subject, he speaks on it to all who coime to him. how can such work be effective?

no physician can use the same perscription for all his patients. alas, some who serve god have only one perscription. though they cannnot first diagnose people's sickness, they are trying to cure them. in spite of their ignorance of man's spiritual condition, nonetheless they seem to be quite ready to treat every ailment. how foolish to have one spiritual prescription, yet try to meet every kind of spiritual disease!

nee

Monday, April 18, 2005

Wheelbarrows

the dictionary says that a wheel barrow has "one wheel and two handles". it has a box-like body ib whcih many things can be carried from one place to another.

a wheelbarrow has no motor attached to it, neither does it have any horsepower. it is operated by hands of man.

there are three things involved in operating a wheelbarrow. if it is empty there is no difficulty whatever, but if it is loaded-let us say- with six crates of oranges, it becomes quite a trick to wheel the load to its destination. first you have to lift- taking hold of the handles and having the load of oranges well balanced. you will find, if one hand had more lifting weight than the other, tat the wheelbarrow may tip over and spill out the crates. then another important effort must be made- you must push!

when jesus came to the world he talked to the disciples and told them to take the love of god and his message, organized and became themeans by which god's message and love was carried.

but as with the wheelbarrow , you and i must lift; and we muust be well balanced ourselves, filled with christian faith and love, and then push , eargly anxiousto give the gospel to all around us.

Sunday, April 17, 2005

more of the release

"as long as the outward man remains unbroken, we will likely find our hands full of things."

"how ofetn the eyes of an ass are sharper than those of a self-styled prophet."

"when by the grace of god upon us we are able to accept the ording of god in our environment, our spirit is released and ready to function."

"his specific purpose is breaking us and releasing our spirit."

"if god's spirit enables us through our spirit to know the condition of the person before us, we can thenimpart the approiate word."

Saturday, April 16, 2005

More of the Release of the Spirit

"it is possible that with the outward man unbroken, one's spirit may be inert and unable to function. if he is a clever person, his mind governs his work, if he is a compassionate person, th emotions control his actions."

"these two conditions weaken our service to god."

"no matter how many people you can attract i\ with your thoughts and emotions the result comes to nothing."

"your best thought, your best emoton cannot make people live."

"when in regeneration we recieve our new spirit we receive god's spirit too."

"thank god that inasmuch as you allow people to contact yoour spirit, you allow them to contact god."

"conducted-carrier- everyone who has recieved grace has the holy spirit dwelling in his spirit."

watchnam nee

Friday, April 15, 2005

The RElease of the Spirit

Here are some quotes from the latest book I've read.

"anyone who serves god will discover the great hinderance to his work is not others but himself."

"ordinarily they shouldbe enabled by the exercise of their spirit to know god's word, to discern the spiritual condition of another, to send forth god's messages under anointing and to recieve god's revelations."

"the aim of the lord is to destroy the outer man."

"the cross must destroy all that belongs to our outward man- our opinions, our ways, our cleverness, our self-love, our all."

"become transparent"

"let us remember that the one reason for all misunderstanding, all fretfulness, all discontent, is that we secretely love ourselves."

-more to come later!

Thursday, April 14, 2005

Sounds you cannot here

science books tell us that there are many sounds which nobody can hear. many insects talk beyiond the range of the huuman ear.

you can see sound sometimes, when you cant her it. put some tiny iron fillings on a peice of paper, then hold a magnet beneathe the particles of iron fillings , and as you move it backa and forth watch the particles hit together and form various patterns. can you hear them hit each other? no!

there are sounds you cant hear but you can feel - whent he church organ is playing you sometimes feel the pew vibrate just a little. it does happen, and the notes that make it vibrate are so low in the bass sectioon that you cannot hear them.

you never heard a bat sing; in fact the voices of many insects are too shrill to be heard by human ears. but these all seem to be able to hear us! any slight sound we make mseems to startle them.

isnt our relationship to god in prayer something like that? he hears our prayers whether we speak words or silently think them, and he answers, we may be sure of thast.

he answers not to our ears but he truly speaks to your conscience and mine, distrubing us, telling us what is right and what is wrong.

he surley speaks to our hearts and minds telling us clearly that love is better tha hate. that we should be kind and considerate toward one another and always trustworthy. thus did jesus grow , not physically , but also mentally and spiritualy - in favor with god and man.


thoughts like these come form john sargents book form 1960

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Baby Food or Meat

I was praying today in the sun. I thanked Jesus for his death and ressurection, then for his body over coming death. I was prompted to stop. Something inside me said "no". So i started again and thanked Jesus for his death and for his spirit overcoming his body. This brought joy to me and an affirmation inside rather than a "no". For we once were dead in the body and now are alive in christ.

maybe both.

Saturday, April 09, 2005

Something I Should Know

I wish i could be compelled to write on somehting i have a great grasp on. Freedom. what does it really mean to be free? obviously to be unrestrained. so what restrains us. for each person it is diferent. we have to examine oursleves or ask god to reveal it to us- one may be more intresting and harder than the other, but whatever restraints each of us will be different. you may restrained by your lack of emotion... another may be restrained by there overflow of emotion. you maybe restrained by your lack of time... someone else may be restrianted by their poor time manaegemnt.

it is important too to understand the differnce between what is restraining us and what we feel is restraining us from our freedom. we may feel restrained by some laws in school systems that do not allow the promotion of one religion over another, however we are not restrained until we do not promote the religion we want. if we do promote it then we are not restrained. there may be consequences for freedom.

if i declare my freedom but do not do anthing , any action, that shows that i am free i am still under retrain, even if it is the restrain of myself. with this acknowledged...

where the spirit of the lord is there is freedom. we can be where the spirit of the lord is and not be free. why? becasue to use an analogy, god has unlocked and open the cell, but we must still walk out of it. god is in the business of relationship not possession.

so to be free from sin (in daily life, not the righteousness already inplace by christ in us) means to move form the cell that puts our dependance in sin. there is no good thing that sin does for us that god has not provided a perfect resolution for. people use sin to cope with life, to feel-either good or bad, and to creaste a sense of self. all of these are solved in christ. the holy spiriti is our comforter. the spirit of god can alter and create senses of feeling within us. and in christ we find oursels in him as we lose ourselves.

one final thing. god spoke to create the world. if you arent acting in the freedom god has given you then speak first..the creationcomes after. just say "i am free". (you might have to say it untilyou let yourself believe it).

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

Tickets for a Prayer Wheel


One thing we've got plemty of
here on the continents
is soil. Out of the soil
the plants are taking substance, edges,
like a tomato moving on its stake,
ten punds of tomatoes, and the ground
blowing them up like balloons.
We walk on the soil
here on the continents
among the plants, and eat.

You tell me your dream
and I'll tell you mine.
I dreamed I woke in a garden.
Everywhere trees were growing;
everywhere flowers were growing,
and otters played in the stream, and grew.
Fruit hung down.
An egg at my feet
cracked, opened up
and you stepped out,
perfect, intricate lover.

let the phonering,
seal a typed letter,
say to the girl in the courtyard,
"I never saw him before in my life,"
call a cab, pull on gloves,
and leave. And leave you,
and leave you with the bill.

I love with my hand, not my heart.
When i draw your face,
my fingers trace your lips.
Crossing a page, my hand keeps
contours; I know that art
isedges.
I touch when I type.
With every finger's tip
I travel the weave of the given.
Hand me a pencil,
cut off my head,
and I will draw you heaven.

-Annie Dillard

Sunday, April 03, 2005

Don't Get Me Wrong

I believe that love is great, yeah, even the romantic type. In fact I'm an aweful "romantic" in my head, though not everyone sees it expressed. But I need to share these lyrics.

Perfect Sonnet Lyrics



lately i've been wishing i had one desire
something that would make me never want another
something that would make it so that nothing matters
all would be clear then

but i guess i'll have to settle for a few brief moments
and watch it all dissolve into a single second
and try to write it down into a perfect sonnet
or one foolish line

because that's all that you'll get
so you'll have to accept
you are here
then you're gone

i believe that lovers should be tied together
and thrown into the ocean in the worst of weather
left there to drown
left there to drown
in their innocence

but as for me i'm coming to the final chapter
i read all of the pages and there's still no answer
only all that was before i know must soon come after
that is the only way it can be

so i stand in the sun
and i breath with my lungs
trying to spare me the weight of the truth

saying everything you've ever seen was just a mirror
you've spent your whole life sweating in an endless fever
now you're laying in a bathtub full of freezing water
wishing you were a ghost

but once you knew a girl and you named her lover
and danced with her in kitchens through the greenest summers
but autumn came, she disappeared, you can't remember
where she said she was going to

but you know that she's gone
because she left you a song
that you don't wanna sing

singing i believe that lovers should be chained together
and thrown into a fire with their songs and letters
and left there to burn
left there to burn
in their arrogance

but as for me i'm coming to my final failure
i've killed myself with changes trying to make things better
but i still ended up becoming something other
that what i had planned to be

allright!

now i believe that lovers should be draped in flowers
and laid entwined together on a bed of clover
and left there to sleep
left there to dream
of their happiness

Friday, April 01, 2005

Maybe I'm the Fool


I wrote something tonight - played it too.

Scab

<>Heath 4.1.05

Taking it apart again

Taking all the pieces apart

Taking all the world apart again

I’m the disrepairer

Taking things apart

I’m the disrepairer

Taking things apart

He said we’d be repairers

Builder of the broken walls

Repair of ancient cities

For people to dwell in

He said wed be repairers

Repairers of the broken cities

He said wed be repairers

Repairers

So again today

I took everything apart

Took it all apart

I was left with what I started

They can call me the disassembleer

They can call me the disrepairer

They can call me the disassembleer

But they should know better

He said I’d be a repairer

Builder of the broken walls

Repair of ancient streets

For people to dwell in

He said we’d be repairers

Repairers of the broken cities

He said wed be repairers

Repairers

Why do I take everything?

To its beginning pieces

Take the little parts

Till there’s nothing left but the start

Why do I take everything?

Take it apart to little pieces

Why do I take everything?

Take it apart till there’s nothing left

Christ’s body was broken

Split into many pieces

Many pieces his body damaged

Its disrepair

Its was disassembled

Its disrepair

It was disassembled

The red held it together

The red held it together

The red held it together

The red holds us together

The red holds us together

The red holds us together

The red holds us together

The red holds us together

The red holds us together

He said I’d be a repairer

Builder of the broken walls

Repair of ancient streets

For people to dwell in

He said we’d be repairers

Repairers of the broken cities

He said wed be repairers

Restorers

Hold me together with your red red blood

Hold me together with your red red blood

Hold me together with your red red blood

Lord hold us together

Lord hold us together

Lord hold us together with your blood